Dream Again, Part Two (Julia Schmidt)

Part Two of my guest post for KHC Women. Of my “duh” moment about focusing on the past.

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If you missed Part One check it out here.

Hope LetterpressBy Saturday morning, I was ready to surrender to the Lord.  I quieted  my shrugging heart and prayed, “Okay, Lord, I will dream again.”

Almost immediately, I got side-swiped with regrets over the things that had disappointed me.  I started comparing.  I started wondering why the Lord hadn’t had ME do this or that ministry.  Why hadn’t he given ME the life that looked so glamorous on someone else?

I stacked up these thoughts of missed opportunities like a Wall of Woes and festooned the top with the thought that now I’m old enough that some of those ships have sailed without me.

I sat in solitude time in my room Saturday morning and wailed to myself, “Why did that happen? Why didn’t I jump on board of at least one of those ships before they sailed?” There was always a…

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Dream Again, Part One (Julia Schmidt)

I was a guest on the King’s Harbor Women’s blog this week, writing about the latest path down which the Lord has taken me. (“Dragged” might be a more fitting verb there)

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On the way to the retreat this year, before I even had time to pull my head out of life and get in retreat-mode, the Lord started nudging me.  “I’ve noticed you don’t look forward to good things these days.”

“Well…. yeah,” I huffed back, a little taken aback that I hadn’t even made it to the 215 freeway yet and He was already doing work on my heart.  “You know.  A lot of disappointing things have happened over the past few years.  I have learned not to get my hopes up any more.”

But He kept nudging me, “But what if you could dream like you used to – what would you want?”  When He has asked me that kind of thing in the past, I usually jumped in gleefully with a list of stuff and adventures and ministries and relationships and everything my heart could possibly desire.  This…

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